So we are 4 days into the new year of 2017 and wow has it already been a ride. I have been involved in a business that seemed to be doomed from the beginning, a true soap opera. During my ordeal with this dis-ease, I have made some really bad choices over the past few years. So many of them have been made out of feeling desperate and wanting to be considered “successful.” Over the past two days I have finally had the “last straw” sort that I am walking away from it, literally signing over my percentage in this company that started from scratch and lost what little sanity I had left to. I feel both relieved in many ways, yet the ego is trying to tell me what an embarrassment I am and foolish for letting the majority stockholder just have my percentage (even though the company is in the hole). I have walked my house and told myself all day that this will pass and I am making the best decision, this will open me up for peace and better things.

On another note, I actually met a swami for the first time Tuesday night. It was so cool and interesting, to sit and listen to someone who has sat in ashram and meditated in India. I am a lover of Eat, Pray, Love- totally ate that movie up! I long for what he spoke of, true love, bliss and peace. He kept saying that everything is already within you, God made you that way to be connected with him.

I want that, I want to stop the monkey mind and truly know God. So tonight, I breathe in deeply and release the pain, fear, worry and depression. Thank you emotional messengers for bringing me to this moment.